Grace

The Grace of G-d has saved each and every one of us... We are all sinners and there is nothing that we can do to redeem ourselves except realize that only through IXOYE we can be saved, and by His redeeming grace we will be in eternity with Him and only by the grace of G-d not by anything we our worthless selves can do to redeem ourselves. Sigur... Eternal Salvation

Only once will I cry...

I feel as if my emotions for someone grow stronger every day, and that I cannot control myself in expressing my feelings for that one. I don't know where that one may be but in my mind. I fail at Expressing those feelings justly, however. Just once, only once, at least once, I wish I could just break down into tears in the arms of the one I love or find that one to show that I will become anything to prove my undying, sacrificial, and ever-attempting(made-up word) unconditional love. I dream that I can weep for a person who weeps for me every day to succeed and proves that love has no boundaries, She understands G-d in a way through relationships that I wish I could fathom. I love you! Wherever you may be... I weep every day for you, I just wish I could express it to you.

Always ugly

When I was younger, so much younger than today. When I hear music, watch a movie, or read a book, I find myself struggling to just enjoy something for the pure beauty of it. I think that G-d has made the world full of people that have more than just mere problems, they have something to say; whether the are bold in their attempt to tell the world or they are making an attempt to hide their pain, I think that it will always be there plain as day. I think people's absolute struggle to become something more than just a part of the mix has become more and more prevalent through movies, as it has in books throughout the French and American revolutions, romantic era, and many years before as well as many to come. I think movies are there for more than just entertainment, I believe that they show our culture life and human struggle in many aspects as books have in years past. I think that writers and directors have become the Aristotle, Dante Alighieri, Confucious, Whitman, Frost, and Poe of our day, they understand how to relate the human deprivation to our culture. the only thing that I enjoy for the pure beauty is G-d's creation, his brilliance and omnisciousness( I know I made it up) to everything. There are no words to describe G-d's presence in this world, but we can sure try...movies...

Bloody

"There will be Blood"- This movie encompases more than just reality, brilliance, phenominal acting, superb directing, an amazing score, and intelligent screenplay; it also shows the parallels between Christ and Daniel Plainview only for a mere second at the very end of the movie. This scene portrays Daniel's view of his mission, goal in life and parallels Christ's death on the cross, but in a way that is neither satirical nor praising Christ. It just shows a seemingly ordinary man against Eli Sunday, a pastor, in which you are being torn between two characters never knowing which side you are on, "G-d's" or "Oil", but you are torn toward the greed and money because it seems to be the less insane of the two sides. I believe that the title was chosen very carefully meaning that there is only one scene in which there is blood, and it is has more relevance than any other scene in the movie to which the movie ends with Daniel plainview elaborating on his life mission. It also portrays Daniel Plainviews goal, and that he will stop at nothing to get what he wants and so, "Ther will be blood", on his way to the top... Profound, Biblical, Spiritual(to which is everything-Rob Belle), and Utter brilliance!

School has become something more

I am ready to see the world... but first I am ready for something more, I am prepared to almost enjoy school bcuz I look at it as if it were something real; something that I am going to do literally for the rest of my life. I want to be a zoologist and a photographer but who truly knows where I will end up, except for G-d, He knows where I will be for every second for the rest of my life until I go and join Him for eternity. I am prepared to let go and just know that G-d will take care of what I can't which is pretty much everything since He knows my name, He knows my every thought, He sees each tear that falls, and He hears me when I call, He created me and I am His lamb He is my shepherd.

too much time

This may sound a little out of the ordinary sine I am still a kid and student, but i am sick of summer. Well in essence it really isn't bcuz summer has become boring but I am ready for that next session in my life to start. i am ready to not have to come home every night to a hotel room that is smaller than my future dorm, and I am ready to live among new people and have a "camp" college experience...again, but this time I won't waste my money and I won't waste my time. The pressures of school will come once again...

What Hotels...

I have been living in a hotel for the last month and 1/2 and man it sux! the whole entire place is less than 200 square feet. Living in this close of quarters for this long with my sister and my dad is so much fun... whatever but I have to sleep on the floor my dad on the couch and my on the floor we don't share the bed bcuz my sister just had her second surgery and so she needs the big ole' bed for herself. But I am finally moving into a house that we own for the first time in over 9 years on June 18th. I have moved so many times that I think it's up to about a bakers dozen now between both parents. 5 apartments, 2 friends basements, a car, and 5 houses, wow it's fun but now I am only in this house for less than 2 months and then I off again to college in greeley to live in the dorms.