School has become something more

I am ready to see the world... but first I am ready for something more, I am prepared to almost enjoy school bcuz I look at it as if it were something real; something that I am going to do literally for the rest of my life. I want to be a zoologist and a photographer but who truly knows where I will end up, except for G-d, He knows where I will be for every second for the rest of my life until I go and join Him for eternity. I am prepared to let go and just know that G-d will take care of what I can't which is pretty much everything since He knows my name, He knows my every thought, He sees each tear that falls, and He hears me when I call, He created me and I am His lamb He is my shepherd.

too much time

This may sound a little out of the ordinary sine I am still a kid and student, but i am sick of summer. Well in essence it really isn't bcuz summer has become boring but I am ready for that next session in my life to start. i am ready to not have to come home every night to a hotel room that is smaller than my future dorm, and I am ready to live among new people and have a "camp" college experience...again, but this time I won't waste my money and I won't waste my time. The pressures of school will come once again...

What Hotels...

I have been living in a hotel for the last month and 1/2 and man it sux! the whole entire place is less than 200 square feet. Living in this close of quarters for this long with my sister and my dad is so much fun... whatever but I have to sleep on the floor my dad on the couch and my on the floor we don't share the bed bcuz my sister just had her second surgery and so she needs the big ole' bed for herself. But I am finally moving into a house that we own for the first time in over 9 years on June 18th. I have moved so many times that I think it's up to about a bakers dozen now between both parents. 5 apartments, 2 friends basements, a car, and 5 houses, wow it's fun but now I am only in this house for less than 2 months and then I off again to college in greeley to live in the dorms.

This Sucks

Allright, So i got this job for a landscaping guy, and I am getting paid $12/ hour and I was super excited to get paid some decent money for once and have a job instead of sitting on my butt all the time. Now that I have this job I hardly ever work! I work maybe 4 hours a day and I maybe work three days a week and I have bitched at my Boss like 12 times already and he still just says work will come. I am fed up and I want to get a new job!

The Rich and The Poor

To be wealthy is not a positive or negative thing as is having lower income. Here is the issue, most of today's lower class society dig themselves a bigger hole every day, I would know bcuz I come from a middle income family, but bcuz of ignorance of financial incites to become better for ourselves we dug ourselves into the very low end of income, with miles upon miles of debt. The wealthy part of our society could help diminish our extreme differences in our culture. But instead of contributing to our issues they instead insist on pushing it farther and more out of reach to reconcile.

Communists

Why do we insist on making our lives all about work or money, I admit I sometimes have the same problem and not everyone is all about money. But bcuz our society is so selfish and all about posessions we insist on making everything about how much we have, I think we need to find a solution. We need almost a communist society in the sense that we all need the same things, for the sole purpose of realizing how selfish and idiotic it is to have so many things. I know a communist society will not work bcuz of dang lazy people, they would ruin it for everyone. It is not idealistic, but it is a very simple, but not very intellegent way to get rid of our selfish nature, bcuz you cannot change the person but you can change the rules. A lame excuse and a lame way to make things go easier for society, but hey do you have a better idea...

Kelsee and Community

I am almost 20 years old, wow, and I am dating an incredible girl, Kelsee Alison Pulford, whom I would not be where I am today, obviously, without her. She is my grace, my passion, and my engine that keeps me going. Her and I plan to attend University of Central Florida barring that we get accepted... but wherever it is we go G-d will be with us and I am not in the least bit worried that we will thrive and be able to be part of an awesome community wherever G-d leads us. As of right now we attend Pathways church in downtown Denver; however unlikely it used to be for me to enjoy church growing up as a P.K. I now thoroughly enjoy a lot of the very Orthodox background of Pathways. Who knows where G-d will lead us to next with a new discovery of community through church or just a simple group gathering on random Thursday nights to watch and discuss movies and/ or books.

Xian College is not for me

I have attended Northwest University for my first impression and semester of College and let's just say I did not do well or did not enjoy, what I thought to be a great Xian atmosphere. I love small Xian communities but this one was full of fake people who thought preparing to become a business man or woman was what it was all about going to a Xian school and all. Don't get me wrong, a Business Major is totally fine, but isn't there a cheaper way, and better reason to go to a Xian college. Yeah, and being surrounded by fellow believers is wonderful, but when partying and dating relationships is the only other thing on your mind besides making money from an acquired business major, there might be a slight, no, huge F*!#ing problem here! Xian College is not for me!

Outdoors

I have a more than ginormous passion for outdoors and G-d's creation, and being raised in Colorado I thrive to be a mountain man haha... G-d has shown me so many beautiful things in his creation throughout time. Through either my Poetry, paintings, or talents that G-d has given me I have been able to express His Elegance and Gorgeous mayhem.

Future Dreams

I don't know if my dream, or G-d's instructions and passion is to be a father of many children here in the states, either coaching and/ or sports announcing and raising my kids with a close to normal life full of sports, first hand anything, and living something close to the "American Dream"; or I think I may have a bigger passion for living outside of the U.S. in either Europe living a completely different life than what I have known, or an even bigger step is moving to South America or Africa and living there raising kids among the people being completely immersed among another beautiful creation of G-d's and learning a new way to live for a better 20-30 years of my life. Who knows, I am completely G-d's tool, even though I may not be the strongest or sharpest tool, I am definately willing to be used as suffice for G-d's bigger and better plan for me.

Matt

Matt I miss you, and you would have gone pro, dunk it in Heaven for me baby! your hard working spirit definately lives on in everyone of us, and we all miss you dearly. I can't wait to play with you when I get up there. I miss your fun spirit, and thanks for always giving me juice, and thanks for the long talks from driving you home all the time. See you Sweetey Petey! 1/2 black!...

MAC

MAC
This is more than just a small entry about someone who I admired more than anything. MAC showed the world how to "live like a naked man in a glass house". He got it, he knew that, "Your relationship with G-d is all that matters and all else will burn". He made me realize that I have a map, a treasure map that no one else really has, and I have not found the Treasure yet, but that is my task and goal is to lead those whom will follow to the Treasure and so far I have lost track and even almost burned my treasure map but only one G-d can remind me what He has given me, will always be there to encourage me to keep the map to guide me. MAC also showed to ALWAYS, " Go by what you know not, what you feel", he proved that "love is the Key to the Universe", and G-d has shown me that through the people that He has put in my life. Only Dark sayings understands, " that to understand everything you must have the mindset of a child."